It’s not often that I think about my ex, but she’s on my mind today. Thinking about her is like this scene in (500) Days of Summer: the more I think about her, the more a memory shifts and changes into something different than I had originally remembered. Memory is funny like that.

At one point, I thought we were meant to be. I was 19 at the time it felt like the only type of love that existed was the forever kind. I realize now that we were meant to be only for a period of time.  It was through the chaos and destruction of breaking up that I was able to really find myself. I had been trapped too long in the expectations she had of me and I never really considered what I wanted for myself. This is not to say theEx was a bad person in any way. In fact, we had a lot of good times together too. I’m just say that breaking up was inevitable and necessary for me to find myself.

We were together for nearly five years and even as I write this entry I’m having a hard time remembering her face. I mean, I have a general idea of what she looks like, but I can no longer remember why I thought she was so special (which I imagine she feels like when she thinks about me as well).

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1 Comment » Posted: September 21st 2009
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